Love.

Love. Something so many girls and guys want to experience in life just once, and if we are lucky enough we will find a person to experience this with for the rest of our lives. I too am guilty of this want.

All through high school I was socially awkward and lacked confidence making group projects difficult for me. Did I want a boyfriend, absolutely. All of my friends were starting to get them and I was always the third wheel. Has anything changed in college, not really but I have very different feeling now. Before I thought I was doing something drastically wrong or that I wasn’t pretty enough, or that I didn’t have an interesting personality. Now though, I realize that I am not doing anything drastically wrong, but rather I am doing things just right. Since going to college I have become more confident and I have made some wonderful friends who still love me even if I don’t match or do the weirdest things. With that being said, I have had my fair share of interactions with guys who have shown interest in me, but for one thing or another it didn’t work out. Was I upset and sad at first?…absolutely, but with my friends and faith I realize that it will work out eventually. I think that because I haven’t been in a serious relationship I have been able to learn so many more things about myself, which will only make a relationship stronger when one does occur.

So many people talk about this and I am also someone who preaches this, but it is much harder to keep following. One must trust that God has a plan for us. Not just one plan, but rather one for every aspect of our lives and we must be patient because if the thing we want is not in our lives at the moment then we are supposed to learn something or experience something that will make ourselves or maybe the other person ready to be in that relationship.

Another thing thing that I used to find myself doing is being jealous or resentful towards people who are in relationships, but now when I see a young or old couple together it gives me hope and trust in God that one day I will have someone who will compliment my life and I can compliment theirs.

To end, I just want to say that patience is a hard thing to have, but while you’re waiting do cool things, spend time with great people and soon enough the  moment will be here.

XOXO

Aud.